You....



This song sums up what I feel for all the people who cared for me through the years. Especially to the one who had put a smile on my face everyday. Meeting you wasn't an accident. Meeting you and having you as a part of my life was and is such a blessing. You have been there (I hope) when I was down and when I was elated in joy. You were my shoulder and my ears when I needed one.

But I hope that one day I could do the same thing for you.

When I close my eyes I see all the secrets that lies deep within.

Buried deep into the depths of my soul.

I never wanted to see what has been said,

I never wanted to hear what has been done.

My bones shakes right into its core,that never wanted to stop.

It echos, it continues, over and over.

To see it coming, to feel the touch, I feel sick to the stomach.

Pass time, I don't want to come near,

even to see a grin, I despised him!

Long time had forgotten what had been done

Now its hunting me... like a pack of wolves on the run.

Losing faith is what had happened,

But God had promised that he will give that peace I needed.

Surely in time it will all go,

As the Lord has promised,

His faithfulness will always show.

Justice is what the Lord promised

Oh God please hear me

My mind and body cant take it no more

I give you everything and take control

One wish

"One wish I have" I said to the moon, " when ever you see him tell him that I love him. When ever you shine bright at night let him see you and remind him that I will always be here for him. Watch over him when he goes to sleep, and don't give him any nightmares. Please Mr.Moon keep shining bright on him.

"One wish I have" I asked the sun, "during the day keep him warm like the warmth of my love. That when you shine on his face, please kiss him on the cheeks for me.  Where ever he goes, please watch over him for me, Please Mrs Sun.

"One wish I have" I plead to the stars." when you twinkle bright at night keep his eyes shining  with joy and keep peace in his heart. That he might find comfort knowing someone is watching over him. Keep an eye over him for me , Please Miss Star.

Falling in love

"Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love, because you don't force yourself to fall, you just fall. "

~ Unknown ~

When I saw this quote the song "Fallin" came to mind. The chorus says "And now I'm fallin, fallin, fallin fast again. Why do I always take a fall when I fall in love".

There was once in my life I fell in love with someone. I fell in love for who he is, not for what he looks like. But he is cute though.He always makes me smile when we talk.I was crazy in love with him. But things are complicated between us. And I have to let him go.

"Maybe by now I've learn, you play with fire you get burn. But the fire can be oh so warm that's why I return. Turn and walk away that's what I should do. My heart says go and find the door my heart says I found you". And this is what I feel right now. I'm trying to distant my self from him but I miss him so much. My mind says "I can do it" but my heart says " I cant".

There are many definitions of love but for me at the moment love is like a drug that seeps into your system and it hard to stay away from it.

"And now I'm fallin, fallin, catch me if you can. Maybe this time I have it all, maybe I'll make it after all. Maybe this time I wont fall when I fall in love".